As I write to you today, all I know is who I am right now… in this moment. I know how my breath feels, and I know how I feel in my body. I started this blog several times over the past week and each time, I questioned what I wrote and deleted it. In fear of “being too much” or “not good enough”. I find myself wanting connection so badly, but at the same time the force seems to bring nothing but disconnect. It seems like such a metaphor for the past few months of my life!
In March I enrolled myself in an online business class and I knew it was going to change my life but I just had no idea as to how. Well let’s just say it brought my ego and inner perfectionist out! There were over 7,000 people taking the class and participating in the online community and I found myself comparing myself and judging myself. I started to feel like I should be doing better… like I should have a better website, a better tag line, you name it. Well let’s just say by week 2 of this 8 week class my body was telling me to stop. So I scaled things down a bit and stopped doing so much but my thoughts were still a turning. I felt so confused, I could see where I wanted to be and I knew where I didn’t want to be but I somehow lost touch with the present, the NOW.
Last week on while on a jog, jamming to my ipod I heard the song “Perfect Day” by Lady Antebellum. As I listened to the chorus I felt my body start to light up…
“It was the perfect day
What I'd give if I could find a way to stay
Lost in this moment now
Ain't worried about tomorrow
When you're busy livin, feels like dreamin', slowly drifting, through this perfect day.”
So I started to think how can I be in this moment? How can I make the most of what I have right now?
This simple shift of perspective started to shift my whole entire day! I took my focus off of “what should I be doing or not doing” to “how can I be of service today”. My heart started to warm (instead of feeling heavy or embarrassed) and I started to notice all the little magical moments in life and how deep in my core I really do know who I am.
One afternoon at the coffee shop (where I work part-time) a regular came in she is 80 years old! I fixed her a drink and a brownie and she sat down to enjoy it. As I was cleaning she started talking to me and telling me about her life. I listened and before she left she said to me "it was nice meeting you. Sometimes I just have to get out and want someone to talk to. I get so lonely at my house my husband passed a few years ago." When she left my heart was warm and I knew that, that moment was part of my service for the day.
How often do we miss out on those moments?
Maybe because we are too busy and moving too fast? Or because we are stuck in our thoughts and worries (about the past or the future).
Just for this week I challenge you to practice being in the moment and starting the day with the intention of “how can I be of service today”. Keep your eyes open for the magical moments! And spread the magic by posting your observations bellow!