Have you ever experienced a time when you were scared and you
felt like you didn’t know what to do? This may have been in regards to your health, weight, a job situation, a relationship, or even money? Did your inner child just wanted to run and hide or was she was kicking and screaming inside of you? In today’s blog I will share some of my personal story with you and give you some secret tips to help you be brave!
In a short two weeks, it will officially be one year that I have been on my own doing private practice! This is so exciting for me, but at the same time as scary as HELL! As, I write this I feel a tingling in my stomach and an excitement run through my blood. This truly is the biggest leap I have ever taken and I feel like my faith has been tested more than ever.
Some days, I sit in my bed and cry and some I am so excited I can’t wait to teach my class or do a healing session. The teaching, healing, and consulting comes easy for me…but the behind the scene stuff – Let’s just say I am learning! At times I feel like I have a baby! This one year old child – crying and needing so many things! What do I give it, what do I do!?
A few nights ago when my head hit my pillow these words from a pop song streamed through my head “I want to see you be brave… Show me how big your brave is”. At that moment my heart smiled and I was able to take a deep breath. I thought OK I can do this! I need to be BRAVE!
What does brave look like?
Initially when you think of brave you might think of the mighty solder – fighting or someone concurring unknown territory. For me what came up was being vulnerable, allowing, asking for help, and trusting.
Blast from the past...
From a young age I learned to be super independent and responsible …maybe because I was the oldest child. I always wanted to please the people around me. I was pretty hard on myself because I was afraid to disappoint them. Having those expectations of myself often left me feeling guilty, unworthy, ashamed, or like I wasn’t good enough. In my preteen and adult years I stuffed
these feelings with food! I remember there were times when I would sneak food into my room because I didn’t want my mom to know that I was eating!
I had days/ nights where I would binge. Food was my friend! It was safe and non-judging! It held space. And it never failed or abandoned me! But at the
same time it left me feeling more guilt, more ashamed, more unworthy, and even
more like I wasn’t good enough.
Back to reality!
Over the past week I have realized that those feelings of insecurity, not being good enough, and worthiness are still very familiar to my inner child. When I am feeling vulnerable those are the first feelings to come up and they often lead me to grief. My first reaction is always to put up my walls and hide! I don’t want the world to see me this way. It’s unsafe! Well, let me just say this time it isn’t serving me LOL. Over the past few weeks I have gained about 3-4 pounds and I know/ feel that it is because I am holding on and protecting myself in every which way. I have been experiencing more tension in my neck, back shoulders; I even had a head ache for three days AHHH. I finally decided I am ready to let go and be brave! That is why I am sharing this with you!
Back to brave!
Brave is not about doing, it is about being! We don’t need to change anything about ourselves. I don’t need to “act happy” when I am not, and I don’t need to “act strong” when I am weak. Over the past few weeks I have realized that by me trying to “act strong” I sent my body into defense mode…my muscles were tight - like I was arguing! And my relationship felt a little on guard.
When we allow ourselves to just be in our authenticity…things flow and we can trust that there is a higher divine plan for each experience. The blame, disappointment, shame, and regret all disappear. Each experience becomes a gift and a learning experience. By being vulnerable and by BEING you never know who you will inspire, or how your relationships will blossom because you are allow yourself to connecting on a deeper level.
Things to reflect on this week:
How can you be brave this week? What does your BRAVE look like? How can you be a little more vulnerable or let down some of your walls? Show me how big your brave is!
Opportunities to work with me:
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If you are ready for a shift with your health, weight, you want to connect back to yourself on a spiritual level, and you are ready to BE BRAVE apply HERE for a complementary feel fabulous session!
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